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I admire people who don’t give a f*** about what others think of them. The people who seem so certain of their decisions. The ones who don’t waver when opinions start flying in from every direction. The ones who trust themselves enough to keep going, even when everyone else has something to say. Some days,

Two nights ago, I had a vivid dream about rainbows and celestial skies. Then the following day, I saw a rainbow while going about my day. It felt like one of those small moments that makes you pause for a second. Today, I received two pieces of good news. My step 2 application is finally

There are moments when I feel low, and without realizing it, I start comparing my life to everyone around me — people on social media, people I grew up with, even friends and family. I look at how certain everyone else seems. How they have achievements to celebrate, milestones to announce, lives that appear stable

Whenever people hear about my situation, they usually tell me the same thing — to give up. They say 9 months of uncertainty is a waste of time. That I should forget about it, stay where I am, get a stable job, and move on with life. But I’ve realised that many of the people

Ever since entering this phase of uncertainty, I’ve become much more aware of how deeply the body and mind are connected. Mentally, I kept telling myself that I was okay — that I was handling things well, staying positive, and moving forward the best I could. But my body seemed to be telling a different

It’s been months since I last wrote—February, to be exact. Life has been… a lot. Emotionally, it’s felt like being strapped into a roller coaster I didn’t choose: one moment I’m numb, the next I’m bursting with energy, and then suddenly everything spills over. It hasn’t really stopped. Somewhere along the way, reading became my

When you’ve been in survival mode for a while, calm can feel unfamiliar. You might even question it. “Why am I not reacting?”“Why am I not emotional?”“Am I becoming cold?” But calm isn’t cold. Calm is regulated. It’s the feeling of standing without bracing. It’s not that problems disappear. It’s that they don’t control your

The past week have been quiet. Not in a dramatic, transformative way. Just quiet. I went to work. I came home. I read. I slept. I repeated the same rhythm six days a week. Nothing remarkable happened. No breakthroughs. No sudden clarity about life. Just stability. A few months ago, I would have panicked at

It has been five months of living in uncertainty. Recently, I realised this phase isn’t ending anytime soon—and that realisation hit hard. At first, it hurt. Then it numbed me. The past few weeks have felt strangely emotionless. I wake up tired, even after dreaming all night. I feel restless throughout the day, yet I

When people talk about comforting others, it often comes down to two types of responses: those who want to fix things, and those who want to hold space. Both come from care, but they feel very different when you’re in pain. When I’m sad or overwhelmed, I don’t need someone to mix everything up and